About Me

Hi, everyone!

My full name is Claire Delilah Jane Black.  I’m a girl… and a guy… all in one happy person.

My feminine side is something that emerged, at least to some extent, as a result of the gap between the practicality of real women and the fantasy of real men.

Guys often hear from women about how unrealistic it is to expect them to live up to the images put out by the fashion and pornography businesses. Women have places to go and things to do and they are far too busy to have the significant amount of time it takes to doll themselves up like a model every day or learn how to contort themselves into the latest position dreamed up by Vivid.

But some men, including the guy I share this body with, want these things, unrealistic or not.   Lucky for him, he was able to find the answer within his own sexuality in the form of a female alter-ego who was only too happy to come out and play.  That’s me, Janie!

In the beginning, I existed mainly for his pleasure – and to a large extent, I still do.  After all, I dress the way the male side of me would like a woman to dress, and to the extent biology permits, I am, sexually, the woman he would design for himself in terms of attitude, aptitude and appetite. That is to say, I do what he likes, as often as he likes, in the way that he likes, and yes, I can read his mind!

But Jane has taken on a life of her own. She has ironically become much more realistic.  I am concerned about the image I project as a woman, and I am careful not to invite the wrong kind of attention on the street. The heels have dropped from 6 inches to 3 or 4 (or 5 inches once in a while) and the hemlines have dropped too.  But at the same time, my girlfriend’s heels have risen to 3 or 4 inches and her hemlines have risen a bit and our sex has gotten a bit more “vivid“. Janie has helped bridge the gap between what each of us thought was reasonable.   Also, I have a much greater appreciation for real life as a girl – the challenges and wonders of it all.

As Jane, I feel completely different than when I’m a guy.  The clothes are sensual and sexy, but at the same time they make me feel vulnerable.  I speak more softly and therefore I’m less aggressive.  I walk in a completely different way, with shorter steps, swaying from different parts of my body.  If the circumstances are appropriate, I am flirty and smile at guys and gals I pass on the street, but I have to be careful about being too friendly.  Still, no small part of the pleasure I get out of being womanly comes from the guy inside me quietly observing and enjoying Jane’s exploits from within.   

I fantasize about sex from both the male and female points of view, so I’m not sure exactly where that puts me on the sexual spectrum.  I guess you could say I’m a bi-curious (or is that hetero-curious) woman in a straight man’s body. (It’s ok if it takes a minute to digest that one… it sure took me longer than that!)

As an essentially straight woman, I think of and fantasize about sex primarily with a man, but the reality is that I‘ve never done it and I don‘t know if I actually could, being that I am also a straight man who conceives of sex as being exclusively with a woman (and this has been my reality so far).  Despite this prospect of Janie doing things with my body that my male side never would have done himself, the guy and girl in me co-exist happily. After all, being the female in his straight/hetero fantasies requires this, doesn’t it?

With my lover, depending on my mood, I can be a guy, a girl or a tranny (if you’ll pardon the term).  This gives rise to quite a few sexual permutations, don’t you think? 

And whenever I’m in the boudoir, my male self is there quietly observing his private sex show from within.  Lucky guy! 

My sexuality is a complicated thing and it continues to evolve.  Who knows where it will take me next?

For instance, having now met people like myself who are partly male and partly female, I am starting to see a new potential attraction to people with this mixed – some might say enhanced – sexuality that doesn’t really fit within anything I have described so far.  So exciting!  The mind reels…

P.S.  Don’t get the wrong idea about me; though some may find it hard to understand, despite my enthusiasm for sex I am very, very picky about who I have sex with.  Also, I am in a committed relationship.  I have zero interest in sexual encounters with strangers or perverts.  None whatsoever!  Really.

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